It's been two years and a half since my best friend died. It's still weighing heavily on my heart. Just like with breaking up with someone you love, random things trigger sudden bursts of gutwrenching misery at the most unexpected moments.
Like just now - I was listening to the Numa Numa song on youtube, and suddenly I saw myself and my best friend dancing to it. We were at a party in a summer cottage, I was pregnant with my first baby, wearing dungarees (nothing else fit me by then :P ), and there were quite a few of us girls jumping around to Numa Numa, singing along at the top of our voices, and enjoying the moment to the fullest :D Our partners were outside, lounging around the grill with their bottles of beers... One of my happiest memories ever.
I will probably have to go out and find myself a shrink to fix me, I'm fed up with these mood swings. I wonder, is there anyone out there who has gone through the ultimate low and come outat the other end, happy and content?